Ultimately, Murakami’s conception of an objective reality is a mirage--solid and unwavering from afar--but upon closer inspection, nothing is what it, Murakami creates an intersection between these two antithetical realities through Shiro’s pregnancy.
For instance Murakami describes the otherwise joyous image of blooming cherry blossoms with the melancholy of Tsukuru losing another friend, “On the trees, cherry blossoms bloomed, then scattered, but still no word came from his younger friend”. He had always felt that he didn’t know his identity and that he was just an “empty vessel” and was lacking in originality and color and in general just everything from his appearance to his persona. Tsukuru Tazaki is a builder. Tsukuru believes he is colorless, empty, meaningless, while his cohort of high school friends, each graced with a name of color, depict genuine meaning and purpose for existence. He is one to think that he was not important and had nothing to offer to others and there was nothing special about him. Archived [SPOILERS] Ending Discussion: Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and his Years of Pilgrimage. She made him realized that he still carried a burden revolving around that situation and advised him to reach out to them to help him resolve the reason on why they had abandoned him. Published on 12 April 2013 in Japan, it sold one million copies in one month. When said cohort unexpectedly abandons Tsukuru, Tsukuru is sent into a vortex of despair bordering lethality.
Sixteen years later and Tsukuru Tazaki was still lugging his emotional baggage creating a rift in his relationship with his girlfriend Sara. Tsukuru is not very social, he is quite introverted, and is not confident about his self and is very discouraged. Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage (Japanese: 色彩を持たない多崎つくると、彼の巡礼の年, Hepburn: Shikisai o motanai Tazaki Tsukuru to, kare no junrei no toshi) is the thirteenth novel by Japanese writer Haruki Murakami.Published on 12 April 2013 in Japan, it sold one million copies in one month.. He had always felt that he didn’t know his identity and that he was just an “empty vessel” and was lacking in originality and color and in general just everything from his appearance to his persona. Sixteen years following Tsukuru’s abandonment, Tsukuru embarks on a journey of closure, seeking out his bygone high school friends. Although Murakami presents the reality in which Tsukuru is the victim first, he never fully gives one reality preeminence over the other as the plot unfolds.
Similarly, after her assault, Shiro develops such a severe eating disorder that “at one point [...] she was down to under ninety pounds” (Murakami 252).
The storyline revolved around Tsukuru having a close group of friends in high school and had maintained it until one day in his sophomore year of college they told him they did not want him to be apart of the group and did not want any type of contact with him anymore.